It took me many years to get here. When I graduated college, I worked for a science museum which was a great job. Then we moved so my husband could finish school. I worked in the admissions department of a massage therapy school. As far as office jobs go - it was pretty chill. There was the weekly chi gong lesson and the ability to volunteer your body for a massage when the student clinic had an opening. But my office was a closet with no windows. I did mundane work for a stickler of a boss. I developed these horrible stomach pains.
I decided to make a change. So I became a nanny. I found a job with an amazing family. Took the kids to the park every chance I got and the stomach pains disappeared. Unfortunately, I was still young and worried what others thought of me. Whenever someone asked me what I did, I started out telling them I went to college and then worked it into being a nanny. I was embarrassed.
Eventually I made peace with it. I still felt like I had no calling in life but I didn't really stress over it. I'm more of a enjoy the moment kind of a girl. Then I had kids and it all made sense.
There are things I don't like - dishes, laundry and the *%$#@ grocery store. But this is the life I chose and I try and enjoy as much of it as possible. I don't live for tomorrow or think the grass is greener somewhere else. I am happy to my core. I look forward to 2014 as another year to hug my kids and hear their laughter. I hope to challenge myself and push myself into new adventures but I know that some day, these kids will be grown and I will have all the time in the world to explore the things I like. Right now I like looking at these faces:
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